A letter to the Jill of 2010

Dear SuperJill,

In honor of your salutation, I wish you will begin to believe how super you really are even if most of the time you feel like you are drowning. You are and always will be a work in progress and for the 32 years that we have been together, you have always been taking a forward step regardless of the size.

You are SO brave. You have done so many things without the help others it amazes me. Your independence is so admirable, but I fear it might have hardened you a bit. That scary vulnerable feeling you have had lately isn't weakness. It is a breakthrough in your light. It is ABSOLUTELY ok to feel these things and I can not wait for you to see what happens when you do, I promise you it will be worth every tear.

You have been doing really well with your patience in the last year or so, but keep it up. You are really beginning to blossom into a kinder, gentler version of yourself with the recognition that there are some contradictions about yourself. This acceptance of these contradictions has been the biggest self discovery you have made in your adult life and I couldn't be more proud of you.

I know you have a difficult time seeing what others see in you, but trust me when I say every word is true. You are all of those things. Most of all, today, at the time I am writing this to you, you are the BEST possible version of yourself and your acceptance of this is such a beautiful thing.

I understand that this last year has been a little challenging for you in terms of "doing things" with the time you have been given to spend on this big blue marble. I promise you I will take you to all of the places that you want to see in our lifetime. I won't leave you disappointed. You are going to live in a different city too, don't worry about that either. In fact, don't worry so much at all! You do that a lot, even though you try to pretend that you don't worry much. You worry tons. You have everything you need and every bit of it starts inside you! Give yourself that big deep breath, don't feel so ashamed for sitting down every now and again. It is okay to take the time to realize how much I love you and please don't ever forget. I would be lost without you!

With you in my thoughts,

Yourself.