Anonymous Love Letters

"I think I'll let you go now. Losing you always hurts. Being with you hurts too. I know we loved each other. It was just really messed up. Bad karma. One day I might reminisce over the good memories but not now. I had to be mean to you this time to assure we wouldn't get back together. It's not right for me, nothing ever changes when you re-visit the past. And now is about the time when it would begin. I miss pieces of you. When you would hold me. When you loved me. When you shared your self enough for me to crave you. I wonder who will fill your shoes. I'm lonely. You were good for me in so many ways. I hope you will forgive me for being so cruel in the aftershock. I wish you true love. Your truth is strong, your authenticity is my favorite part of you. I saw it a few times. I hope a special girl will see more of it. I can't believe I'm in this place right now. I really think I can let you go. We chose to share a piece of our lives together, and for that I have no regrets, I am grateful. You helped me in so many ways. You will always hold a special place in my heart. With love...xo"

"But its not about the past. Its about the future. You taught me so much. You continue to inspire me. You were also good for me in so many ways, and I know I was good for you, too, although I can get better. I agree with you that we need to get ourselves healthy to ever have a chance at a positive relationship with each other or anyone else, and I respect and appreciate your strength in this conviction. I'm doing that, and I know you are too. Yet we never really worked on "us," did we? And yet we were making progress in many aspects of our relationship, weren't we? If there is anything I can do to make it not hurt for you to be with me, I want to do it.

In any case, I am going to continue to love you. Unconditionally, forever, whether we are together or not. The way I still feel about you is very different than I've ever felt before. I rarely use the word soulmate because it sounds very high-school to me, but I do feel as though we were meant for each other.

It was bad timing, not bad karma. And although we've given each other some space, I still believe there is a foundation there.

I'm sorry I couldn't figure out a way for us to be friends. And that in the past, I couldn't make you feel safe. I long to hold you again, to give you everything you deserve. To look in your eyes. To laugh together. To hear you tell me what you think I should do in the various aspects of my daily life. :)"